Father! Forgive Them...


“Father! Forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing” (Luke 23:34).

According to the Gospel of Luke, in the place called the Skull, the soldiers crucified Jesus between the two criminals. On the cross, Jesus said, “Father! Forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing” (Luke 23:34).

In the prayer “Our Father,” Jesus taught his disciples to practice the virtue of forgiveness, “Forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us” (Matt 6:12).  When Peter asked how often he should forgive those who offended him, Jesus suggested seventy times seven, meaning, unlimited forgiveness to the wrong acts committed against an individual (Matt 18:21-22). Above all, Jesus not only taught forgiveness but also acted on it. In his last hour and on the cross, Jesus uttered the words of forgiveness to those who had brought him to the cross.        
I was born in Saigon, the capital of South Vietnam. In April 1975, Saigon fell into the hands of the Vietcong. This event is known as the Fall of Saigon, and is dramatized by a famous musical performance, “Miss Saigon.” The Fall of Saigon dramatically took place when I, thirteen years old, saw one of the first Vietcong tanks rolling along the main road of the city around 11:15am. That fateful Wednesday morning of a fateful day has become an indelible memory for many Vietnamese people. All of a sudden, I recall, the cerulean blue sky of a summer morning turned dark with many gray clouds. The fateful day continued its fateful course when the last US helicopter lifted off from the top of the US Ambassador's building. The helicopter gradually disappeared over the horizon. Saigon was breathing her last breath with the radio broadcast in which the leader of South Vietnam was announcing the surrender of the South Vietnamese government. Bullets seemed to be coming from everywhere. People were running on the road. Shouting! Crying! Chaos! Finally the first Vietcong tank entered the huge courtyard of the palace of the President. That was it. Game over! The iron curtain, as expected, dropped down to close the doors of Vietnam to the outside world. No one got out, no one got in. No news does not always mean good news, for after the Fall of Saigon, the Western countries received almost no news from Vietnam. Only when the first waves of those who escaped from Vietnam searching for freedom surfaced, did the many headlines in the late 80s bring news about those who were left behind. Based on the means which those asylum seekers used for the dramatic journey seeking freedom of speech and religion using small boats, for the first time, the name “boat people” was invented. A new vocabulary was born: "boat people." And I was one of them.      

In October 1982, I left Vietnam with 62 other people in a fishing boat 12 meters long to embark  about 480 kilometers passage across the Gulf of Thailand to Malaysia. The journey to freedom lasted for four days! Our tiny fishing boat finally landed on Malaysia after battling storms on the Gulf of Thailand and encountering ferocious Thai fishermen who robbed us, beat us, attacked my older brother on his face with a knife, and sexually assaulted all young ladies in our boat! I witnessed the moments all the young girls in my boat became the victims of these merciless fishermen. After the abuse, these men took five of their victims to Thai’s boat. They then left us. We never see those young ladies again. These horrible moments have been bitterly engraved in my mind. However, I learnt to forgive those fishermen who attacked our boat, knifed my brother, and assaulted young ladies. Forgiveness is not easy. But I learnt to forgive those fishermen; and above all, to forgive myself, for I, at the age of 20 years old, happened to be a living witness of such a horrible event.

Relating to the first word of Jesus on the cross, I myself can also say to God the Father with regard to the horrible acts of those fishermen, “Father! Teach me to forgive them, for they did not really know what kind of harm they have done to all of 63 miserable souls on my boat.” Yes, I with God’s grace choose to forgive!

Prayer: Father of mercy and forgiveness, please help me to forgive fully, freely and forever so that I may be liberated from the bondage of the past.

Michael Nguyen SVD 

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